Roseville & Randomness

On Friday morning my mom, Lynae, Josiah and I left for our weekend in Roseville. We had a GREAT time! I'm still very tired from the trip though! But it was worth it. I should've planned to have Monday off of work, too, so I could sleep in. Luckily I don't have to start work until 10am so it's not too awfully early.

We ate good food, shopped A LOT, and got to spend a lot of time with little Joey. :) We also got massages on Saturday morning. They were SO great! I think my mom and Lynae really enjoyed theirs and I know I loved mine. I got some good buys, too. I got really cute shoes from Nordstrom Rack for less than half of the original price. They had a bunch of 20 dollar jeans at Gap and I bought some shirts from Kohls and H&M, too. Nae got a swimsuit and some stuff for the babies. My mom got some shorts and some stuff for the babies, too. :) Oh, I also bought Nory some really cute shoes from H&M! :)

Carrisa (and Norah) met us for lunch and bit of shopping because she was in Placerville already visiting her family so she stopped in Roseville on her way back.

It was so fun spending time with little Josiah. He's soooo cute! He likes to look all around at the lights and at pictures and things like that. He also looks in your face now sometimes. He smiles in his sleep. He's perfect! He gets a little bit cranky in the afternoon/evening. I think it's just cuz he has the farties. :) Poor guy.

When we got back from Roseville we were going to see My Sisters Keeper but it started later than they wanted since they'd get home kind of late. So I begged Ryan to go with me. It was the saddest movie ever! I cried and cried! I was quite pathetic. I was overly tired and probably pmsing which made it a not so good time to see a really sad movie! But it was really good. I think I want to read the book now.

Here's a pic of some of the stuff I got got in Roseville:

I've been wanting to get some rusty-orange colored pillows for our couch and a pretty orange rug. I can picture the rug that I want in my head but I'm not sure that it exists. I guess it'd have a similar feel to this one but with much less white and a more subtle/smaller pattern and I prefer a square one.

Although this one isn't exactly what I want I like it a lot and it's an okay price and it has the orange color I like.

I wonder if I'd get sick of the circles? hmmm. Speaking of stuff I want, I'd really like this swimsuit from Target. It's so cute! It has good reviews, too. It has cute polka dot straps. The bottom is also adjustable to be more like a boyshort cut and it makes it look really vintage.

Anyway, while the girls were gone for the weekend the boys hung out. Ryan went swimming with my dad, Lance, Seth & James at my grandmas house. The next day my dad, Lance, Seth, and Jamesie camped out in my parents back yard with Mocha, their doggie. I think James had a lot of fun! James has been taking swim lessons with Daddy and now he can float around by himself! He's sooo cute! I miss him so much!

Bummed

Ugh, this week is the LONGEST WEEK EVER! Yesterday (Tuesday) felt like it should be Thursday. Sooo, that means that right about now it feels like I should be just arriving in Roseville for a weekend of shopping and relaxing! We've been watching Tammy's dogs which isn't really a big deal but it means I've had to get up early and go over there and let them out and feed them before work. It's not even that early but I'm a big baby and I'm used to being able to sleep in a little bit. Yesterday was easy but for some reason this morning it was REALLY hard to get up.

So, I have my quarterly one on one meeting with my boss today. I get meeting anxiety. It doesn't even matter if it's a simple meeting, I still get pretty nervous. She's pretty formal about meetings even if she doesn't try to be so that adds extra stress. One of my suggestions today is going to be to either have fewer meetings (quarterly is WAY too often for my job, and I can just set up a meeting spur of the moment if I need to!), OR at least have less formal meetings. I'd prefer going to the park or grabbing coffee or something instead of being locked in the teeny tiny meeting room with her. I think she's the type that gets her feelings hurt kind of easily and takes things personally so that's why I get weird about the subjects I have to discuss with her. I've been freaking out a little bit about it since she set up the meeting about a week ago. :( I need to CHILL OUT!

Last night I worked for about 30 - 60 mins or so in Word on some notes for the meeting. Somehow they got deleted or not saved and I COULD NOT find them. I had Ryan search for it, too. I'm never stupid like that on computer stuff so I really don't know what the heck I did wrong. It really bummed me out even though it was fairly easy to re-create this morning. I was just looking foward to having it all squared away so that I could relax this morning. For some reason after that when we went to bed, I think I was bummed about the stupid computer and I was overly tired, but I just felt really depressed. I wanted to cry after the computer messed up but I didn't. That was until I stepped on the heel of one of my shoes that was upside-down on the floor. That pushed my tears out since I was already upset.

Anyway, I just want this week to be OVERRRR! I want it to be Friday morning! :) We're going to meet at Cafe Ricci which is across the street from our house. It's a nice little cafe that serves lunch and breakfast, coffee and SCONES! Their scones are amazing. Then we're heading off for Roseville. A weekend of shopping, relaxing, massages, hanging out with the girls and little Josiah. I can't WAIT! This week just needs to ENNNDDDD!

K, I've done enough complaining for one day!

Softball

Softball games are extra fun this year because if they're early enough Lynae brings James and Josiah to watch Daddy and Uncle Ryan play! Which means I get to hold one or both of them. I love it! Jamesie cheers (not always for the right team, but hey!) and says cute things like "go team, go!" and "go daddy!" and "yayyy Adu Rynnn!"

Last night they played one of the CMA teams and Jordan was on the other team. Our team won by one point. YAYYY RIDGE! :) I think Ryan has been having a great time. But last game a ground ball bounced and rolled up his body and got him right on the EAR. He has a little cut in his ear and he said it was a little bit sore for a few days, sort of like a bruise. His ear was bleeding when it hit him and we were worried that it was his BRAINS! haha. :) JK. But we did get nervous.

"Go team go!"

"Yayyy DADDY!"

"Yayyy Adu Ryne!"

"Oops, I was cheering for the wrong team!"
(This was really his reaction when we told him to root for OUR team, and not the other team!)

"Aunt Leelee hold Lolilah, I hold mommy!"

James decided that it'd be okay for Rowena to take Josiah home with her. When we asked "won't you miss him?" he replied "yyy--nooo." But when the game was over we asked him if Josiah should go home with him or with Rowena and he had a change of heart: "He go home with ME!"

Josiah slept almost the entire game. It's all he does right now besides eating, pooing, and looking CUTE!!!

The End! :) (I'll probably be skipping the 9pm game this week. YUCK!)

Cutie Josiah :)

My nephews are the cutest! Some new pics of Josiah (His one month bday was yesterday!) :

Father's Day

I made my dad a mug at Glazed Creations for Father's Day! It says "The 'Stache" (short for mustache) on one side, and there is a painted mustache on the other side (so that when he holds it up to drink from, it's right under his nose where his real 'stache usually is.) So funny! :) Lynae had us and my parents over to their house to celebrate father's day. It was really nice. Nae made a delicious potroast and we had some of Sue's leftover potato salad too which was yummy. Lynae also made berry pie which we enjoyed with vanilla ice cream on top. YUMMM! She's a good house-wifey-mommy. I think making a pie and lunch for her (even with two babies!) is a fairly normal task but it probably feel like a long day to me. It would actually probably be really nice to do something like that here at our place. I think it comes naturally for Nae which is really cool. Ryan and I are pretty bad at planning and executing things. haha. Anyway, I'm proud of her and how her and Seth "run" their family. I know they make it by trusting in God and leaning on his love, grace, strength etcx100. :) It's hard to have a brand new infant AND a son with physical disabilities, and they still pull it off really well. :) The day was a good one and I hope my dad and Seth had a great father's day. Nae and the babies made Seth a nice card with Josiah's footprints and James' handprints and footprint. I think Seth really loved it. And it sounds like James had fun making it because he told us about it and seemed pretty proud of himself.

Here's some pics of the mug I made my dad, as promised. It also says "happy father's day" on the bottom which I didn't snap a picture of. I handed off fussy Josiah to Ryan while I snapped some pics and I could tell he probably wanted me to take him back asap. haha. Ryan is so cute with the babies and they seem to like him. I think he get's nervous (or maybe just bored?) but I don't know. Anyway, PICS:

So, not perfect but still pretty cute. I wanted to get a travel mug but they didn't have any left. Argh.

I got to hold Norah today in church and she was awake and sooo cute. She's still at the age where she makes funny faces (obviously not on purpose), just cuz she's looking around and learning the world. She's soooo cute and so tiny compared to Josiah who is basically the same age as she is. At Nae's I got to hold Josiah a lot, too. It was a great day! Babies everywhere! Oh, and I got to hold little Lucy, too! Wow, lots of babies. Another girl, Ashley, from our church is pregnant! They just told everyone yesterday and made little shirts with sonogram pictures on it to wear to church today. You can tell they're really excited. It feels like everyone just had babies but there's still a bunch on their way, too! It's crazzzzyyyy.

Sometimes I feel like we're missing the boat and other times I'm glad we're not just jumping on because everyone else is. I really, really just want to get better first. And I know it's not guaranteed, but it's worth giving it a shot while we have money and nothing else holding us "hostage" (house, kids, etc). Those things are wonderful things but I would definitely put them first before my health. They're expensive. haha. We really do want a house and we want babies too. It's just not time yet. It will be, hopefully not too extremely far in the future, but we're waiting til we feel sure about it instead of just hopping on board. I know it sounds like we're living in fear a little bit, and I do admit that's a small part of it, but I really just sort of have an "ideal" checklist in my head. And if my checklist doesn't work out, then we'll know, and we'll have to just do it anyway. But I honestly don't feel that nudge from God yet that it's time. We're still kinda young and I think we'll look back and just know that God's timing is better than ours. Heck, it might mean really soon without being better, and having to really really trust that God will give us His strength to get through it. It might mean we have to wait longer than we want to on His timing. Or it might just fit in perfectly with my "checklist". I have no idea. I guess we'll have to wait and see. I think if someone asks me when I'm going to have a baby I'm going to start saying "I'll let you know when I know". 'Cause I really DON'T know. Today I asked Ryan if being at Nae's house makes him want kids less or more. At first he didn't answer but later I bugged him for an answer and I think he settled on "both". I think I agree. Jamesie and Josiah bring me sooooo much joy. It also seems endlessly tiring and stressful. I KNOW that the benefits outweigh the negatives. I'm just explaining the "both" answer. :)

Anyway, I got Nory a cute little 80's inspired outfit that I have yet to give to her. It's a little jumpsuit in case she wants to go work out or go to the beach or something. HAHA!

Last week we watched Carla & Tones' doggies, Cheetah and Daisy. I mean to take more pics but here's one I snapped of Cheetah "working" on one of our office chairs at work. Haha!

Well, we're probably going to bed soon-ish. I think I was more tired at like 5pm than I am right now but I guess we have to get up for the "W" word tomorrow (Work. bleh). 'Night!

Glazed Creations / Vacation

So, last Friday Robin and I got together after work and picked up our usual Thai dinner which is what we always get before we go to Glazed Creations (unless we decide to get Teaz Me, because the chocolate sin cake is irresistable). Then we headed over to glazed creations. We got there just after 6:00 and they were CLOSED! They're not supposed to close until 9:00pm on Fridays! We were sooo bummed. We just looked at the sign which read "we are sorry, we had to close at 6pm tonight" or something like that. We didn't know what to do! We held our Thai food bag in our hands and just pouted and looked in the window for a couple of minutes. We were so bummed and decided to take our food to the park and people watch instead. Rachel was on her way home from the bay area and was thinking about meeting us there, so I had to text her and tell her the bad news. We tried to set up going together the following day but neither of them could come. I decided to go the next day by myself. I would've invited another girl but most of my girl friends have brand new babies so it's hard to try to plan last minute things with them sometimes. But that's okay. I was able to take my time and not worry about rushing for someone else. I tend to like to do things by myself. :) It was still sucky though because girl nights are FUN and I like to see what the other girls make.

So, today was the day I was supposed to be able to pick up my "creation" which is my dad's father's day gift. Thursday after 4:00 (and they close at 6:00). Wellll, at 5:40 I saw a commercial about Father's Day which made me remember that I never picked up my stuff! So I called this time to make sure they were open and then I raced over there to get it because I didn't want to wait til tomorrow. Well, I got there and a girl was there as well as the owner. The girl looked around on one shelf forever, then on the other shelves, and then in the back room. Then the owner joined her in the back room to search for my item. They couldn't find it. They had me describe it a couple of times. The owner lady realized that she thinks that it was in the kiln right then which means it's not finished. Ugh! I was bummed. Again. So now she said I should call tomorrow night to see if it's done, and if not, it will be done by Saturday for sure. PSHHH! I want my studio fee refunded! Actually, Friday night's studio fee is only 5 bucks, and it's normally $9 on any other day. Since our night was ruined on Friday, on Saturday I asked if I could get the Friday night rate and they gave it to me. So that was good.

Anyway, next weekend my mom, Lynae and I are gettin' OUTTA HERE! :) We're taking a little mini-vaca to Roseville for shopping, possibly spa day, hanging out, going out to yummy dinners, possibly wine tasting on the way home, etc. I can't WAIT!!! If we do go to the spa there is this massage where the ladies pretty much WALK on your BACK and hold on to the two poles above them, ya know? I want it sooooo bad! It's on special this month at one of the spa's in Roseville for 15 bucks less than it usually is. I think I'm going to have to get it. Even though the massage, shopping, & eating will be fun, I'm mostly just excited about getting out of town. I've been craving a vacation even if it's a small one. Plus, I get to spend time with my Mom who I don't see as much as either of us would like, and Nae who is always fun to be with. Also, Josiah is going to come with us too so I get a whole weekend with the little cutie pie. I love him so much!

Speaking of Josiah, I really really miss my boys! :( I want to see Jamesie and Josiah soooo bad! Ryan has a game tomorrow so I was thinking of going to see the boys before the game but Lynae is going to magalia with Josiah and dropping off James with my mom around 6:00 and we don't get home until after 5. So that's not going to work. :( They're just so cute and I miss them lots.

Anyway, it's bed time and I should probably throw in a load of laundry beforehand, too.

'Night night!

Vampires

I finally went and got my blood work done this morning. I went in last Thursday to get it done but they told me that for the blood work that goes to IGeneX (the lyme test) it has to be done on a Mon - Wed since they have to ship it out and don't want it to sit over the weekend. So, yesterday before church Carla and Tones brought the doggies by for us to doggie-sit over night while they went to Tahoe for a little anniversary trip. This morning I knew I had to get up early to get my blood work done, but I had to get up even earlier because I had to go from our house off of Eaton over to Mangrove to get the blood work, and then back home to get the doggies (since I didn't want them to sit in the car), and then go BACK accross town to work in downtown. It's not that big of a deal since I don't usually work until 10:00, so it's really not THAT early, but I'm still not used to it. Anyway, the labs they're doing this time is the Western Blot test or whatever through a lab called IGeneX. That one tests for Lyme. I've had it done before but it's probably been like a year and a half. They're also running my general labs again which does like a blood cell count, blood sugar, inflammation, cholesterol maybe? I don't know exactly. It's pretty basic stuff - about 5 different things. They'll be calling me probably by the end of the week if anything comes up on that one. The Lyme one will take more like 2 weeks for the results to come back. OMG, I've been praying and praying and asking Ryan to pray and pray for the blood results to tell us SOMETHING. I know, it's weird to wish for a diagnosis, but I want an answer. I'm sick whether I have a diagnosis or not, so I might as well know what it is and hopefully be able to get treatment for it, right? I'm starting to obsess over it and I need to chill out. It's hard because I want to get my hopes up because I believe that it's possible that an answer is right around the corner. But at the same time noooottthhhing in the past has given us concrete answers so I don't want to set myself up for disappointment. I guess I'll be disappointed whether I get worked up or not. I dunno. The "vampire" (aka phlebotomist) was a nice, pretty girl. I think she could tell I was a little bit nervous because I didn't really say more than 2 words to her and I kept glancing at the tubes and then looking away. Really, I get a bit nervous but it's not that bad. I just don't like to WATCH them do it. So I think that they think when I avoid looking at them or at my arm that I'm terrified or something. Haha! Sometimes I can hear it which is the grossest thing EVER, but I couldn't this time so that was good.

I went on a walk today by myself like a couple of hours ago and it gave me time to think. I don't get to do that often since when I'm not busy, I drown out my thoughts with TV or internet or whatever. But I've been thinking a lot lately about what has been mentioned in a few sermons recently & stuff. Basically: WHY am I so obsessed with what OTHER people think, when all I should be concerned how GOD sees me. I realized on my walk that it's not even intentional; we just do it naturally sometimes. One way we do it is by the way we casually talk with some people and we either omit certain things or add certain things. For example, you'd maybe say "God Bless" at the end of a letter to your Christian friend, but leave it off on a letter to a non-christian friend. Don't I want God to bless both my Christian AND non-Christian friends? Why would I leave it off of the note? "Oh, they might thing I'm weird." OR, why would I add it to the letter to the Christian friend? Sure, I wish Gods blessings on them. But am I saying it to make them somehow think I'm a more Godly person since I use His name in my closing? But we dont even think about it. It's just automatic sometimes. Leave out this word, add this phrase. Whatever. Maybe that's not even the gist of what i mean... just a tangent, really. All I know is that I care what other's think of me when I should be focusing on the fact that God loves me and sees me as a beautiful girl regardless of what I do or say. I dunno. I'm kind of rambling, aren't I?

On another note, watching the doggies was pretty fun! It went by fast and I think just one night was pretty suitable for us - especially for Ryan since he doesn't really like doggie sitting very much. The nice thing is that it was quick and the dogs are really well behaved. I brought them to work today and Cheetah got to play with Changey. It was really cute. Daisy's a big scaredy-cat.

Anyway, I'm getting tired and losing track of my thoughts. Ryan will be home any minute from his baseball game (I hope). I tend to NOT attend the 9:00 games, because, well, that's LAME! 'Night night everybody.